tselmc:

1. Trying to please everyone.

2. Fearing change.

3. Living in the past.

4. Overthinking.

5. Being afraid to be different.

6. Beating yourself up over mistakes.

7. Thinking you’re not good enough.

8. Thinking you have no purpose.

Today was a better day

Thankful to god, that I was able to enjoy today

It wasn’t perfect

We definitely had our ups and downs today

But I enjoyed today. I felt normal. Still some what anxious about my health, and of course I got things going on in the back of my mind but I got to enjoy today. Thankful for this feeling

I feel neglected. I want love and affection. I want attention, kisses, hugs, reassurance. I feel like a failure, and whatever I do isn’t good enough. I’m not doing my best. I’m draining myself, and it’s disappointing.

Why doesn’t she make me a priority?

Is that bad to ask for? - serious question -

I miss what used to be… I was afraid it would get to this point.

I just wish I was happy

I want to be truly happy. I want to feel free, and not trapped in my mind. I feel like I’m behind prison bars, trapped in my mind with my thoughts. I don’t know how to make them go away, or make them feel better. I think so much. I think bad thoughts. I think I’m always in trouble. I feel like a burden all the time. I compare myself too much. I just can’t stop it either, other wise I would do it at the snap of my fingers. I want to feel in love again. I want to feel like this life has a purpose. I don’t want this to be my forever. I want out.

ah-whocares:

Been about a week and my anxiety crept up on me again. Crying alone in the room. Fidgeting and can’t seem to relax or make myself feel better. I’m on medication, and it’s for depression and not anxiety and I’m just confused as to why everything has to be this way. I just want to be happy again.

Update: I had a panic attack